The Reflection Pool

It is so hard to realize that I am actually here in Alaska. Even harder to believe that I drove here alone. It went well. I filled the silence with music and chit chat with myself. Many people kept me company via phone. Thank you for that. I wasn’t sure that I could handle being with myself for that long but it went well. Not too much happened and certainly not a whole lot to talk about but I will get the stories I do have up soon. Tonight I am just going to sleep and enjoy that.

It is beautiful here and everywhere in between. No picture can even begin to capture the scenery. It is more than the scenery though. It is also you and your emotions/feelings that really affect your view. This drive I went through lots of different emotions but the one that really hit me is insignificance. In the grad scheme, in the world at large, I am insignificant. However, I am not in the lives of the people I love and all the lives I touch. All I can do is give and help those within reach. I can affect some. That is where I will place my focus.

There were things that I realized are missing from my life. The most noticeable is the lack of calm in my life. I used to be able to walk into a room and the dynamics would immediately change. Tension would disappear. What happened to that? Where did my calm go? I need to search for that because I do miss. I have not been me of late. That peace and calm has been gone.

I miss me.
I am coming back to myself though.